Sunday, November 20, 2016

New Season

We are heading into a new season, already. Officially the winter season doesn't begin until December something, but Thanksgiving is this week and then fast-forward to Christmas... 

Life seasons have changed as well, haven't they? 


God is Good <3

As believers, we say it all the time, but do we truly believe He is good? I've questioned all the "bad" going on around me, everyday, worldwide. And the innocent suffering troubles me most - why does it happen? I don't believe God damns an innocent individual, regardless of race or religion or sex etc. But this world and the sin that often encompasses free will, was damned at the fall of man.

One Choice

One poor choice

that continues to ring through-out time, has planted a seed of death. But...

God is Good <3
And He is Eternal

I tend to view life through my limited fleshly existence. In order for me to see anything deeper I need to get beyond my flesh, beyond the demands on my life. Beyond aches and pains, Beyond all that is temporary. And focus on the Jesus part of my being

My spirit.

And since the world is perishing all that is in the world is perishing with it. So my choice, everyday, is to choose Jesus, choose righteousness, choose good works - to be the 

Hands and Feet of Jesus

And to clothe myself in His Glory!

I still don't understand suffering but I know this life is all but a "spit in the ocean" compared to eternity. It doesn't last. Until the day of my final breath I will work to make someone else's life less painful, less hurtful, less unbearable, in the Name of Jesus. And only by His Name can I do it.

Make me a vessel, a container to fill
And pour into me Your Holy Will
Overflow, flood, Your Oil and Wine
May it flow into others and pass across time
Pierce into the heart what is strange and absurd
Your anointing, Your anointing, Your Holy Word

God You are everywhere - I pray Your Word reaches throughout the world, into the remote protected hearts of all men and women and children. Come Lord Jesus - pour out Your Spirit. Show us truth. Help Your church to release old ideas of men and religion and receive a fresh revelation of You.

God, You are good
And You are eternal

Saturday, October 29, 2016

The Young Warrior

A couple weeks ago I went on a field trip with my son Evan's 5th grade class. As you can see below, he is the only boy in a class of 7. In the beginning I wasn't sure how this would work out but he went from being lonely, nervous, and combative to being happy and excited to go to school.

Making friends was never easy for him. Well, actually, when he let himself, he made friends pretty easy. But fear ruled his heart early on in life. And making a friend meant the possibility of losing a friend. We prayed, and consulted counsel, and prayed more. He had always been a nervous child. At age one he was hyper-aware of EVERYTHING. Anxious attachment. Never wanted me out of his sight. Controlling. Even at one.

But I did see glimpses of healing, little by little.

When he first came home I spent 2 years, every Sunday, in the church nursery, just so that primal memory trigger of being abandoned would not rear it's ugly head. I fed him bottles much longer than I would have if he had been born from my womb, and I held him close to my body making sure to make eye contact. Eye contact was, and still is difficult for him.

The past 10 years has been a journey for us all. This story is theirs to tell one day. Evan is definitely an over-comer. And lately, I've watched him fall in love with learning. Growing in grace and knowledge of his potential in Christ! He can "see" he is good at something and it has built confidence. 

His current class has been an answer to prayer. These kids are the BEST! and I'm so glad to see Evan thriving.

So as we walked the streets of old city Philadelphia, I couldn't help but think this...

...To take hold of trust, is to let go of fear. You can't have both. One or he other will rule in your heart.

And when the road to liberty is difficult, the battle won becomes that much sweeter.

My Young Warrior is my hero. I'm so proud of him.

Enjoy the photos of Philly!
Washington Square was once used as a "potters field" in the 1800's

Tomb of the Unknown Revolutionary War Soldier

Below is the Betsy Ross House

There were names and occupations of patriots on the ground outside of the information center... What exactly is a "gentleman" occupation haha. 

Great Day!

Saturday, October 1, 2016

Summer Gone...

Summer, I can't believe you are gone. Why did you race by so fast? I wasn't finish with you yet! Although, we did some pretty awesome things together, and memories where made, you obviously moved on. 

You're absence reminds me that life moments together need to be lived and loved hard.
And husbands, moms, friends, etc, need to be held close and loved hard.

And those noisy, sometimes annoying, littles need to be chased down and heart hugged and loved hard... 
because the moment you get busy and look away, those used-to-be littles enter the world of adolescence and will begin to run somewhere else...
 and that same "too busy" moment you thought you could make up later, never comes. 

So thank you summer for these moments. 

I pray during this new emerging season we don't miss those new moments to live, hug, and love hard, make new friendships, and enjoy the fresh opportunities to make lifetime memories. 

OC 2016

Can't believe Micah is 4.... my love

2 more Loves... Poppop and Aaron

In desperate need of a real pool!

Asher made a wish and Make A Wish granted it! A brand new heated pool! 

Family Vacation to Myrtle Beach!

Me and my girls!

Mom and Jim, so glad they came too!

The newest beach baby Benjamin!

They look so grown up!

Two of my beautiful daughters
Lunch at Hard Rock Cafe

Building their own remote control cars

Doing "Princess" right!

A spontaneous trip to Monticello

My Love

Crazy Crew

Mr Jefferson with some of my favorite peeps

Sporting her birthday bunny slippers

Happy Birthday to amazing Arielle

First Day of School for Asher 2016

First Day of School for Evan too!

Tuesday, July 19, 2016


I am so proud of my kids, especially the four youngest of the Fithian tribe. We are overcoming great obstacles and reaching major milestones in 2016.

It's been a year of 


And one way I love to illustrate how much they have grown is to go on a hike. Each year at the start of our first hike I hear "it's too hot", "the bugs are biting me", "I hate the dirt", "I'm thirsty", "my feet hurt" etc. A lot of complaining! But once we get to where we are going everything changes. They feel "accomplished" and beg to do it again... Except Levi, my grandson, he let me know that he will hike maybe twice a year haha! Well, that's more than his mother. She has never been the hiking type :P But these hikes become learning lessons for us all. We start out slow, and what seems to have no point, end up somewhere cool, refreshing, and beautiful... all we have to do is persevere with the journey. 

PRE Hike lunch...

The cool shady forest stream makes is all worth it!

Lizzy finished Kindergarten, she loved it, and loved her teacher. I hesitated sending her but I think it was a great idea. At least for a time. She started in November, just in time for all the fun holiday activities. I had no expectations but due to some of the changes in the lives of the other kids, she was spared some of the tension in our home at the time... but that was last year, and much has changed.

I will home school Lizzy this coming school year. I can't think of a better way to solidify our bonding. We need connecting one on one. And since both boys will be in school in the fall, it'll be just me and my girly I can't wait <3
Learning about growing things... I'm always surprized a what Lizzy is still learning. The things a child typically learns at 3 or 4 are still things she is learning at 7! But she is like a sponge and is so smart! Easy to teach. 

Lizzy went to her first dance with her daddy... Her first DATE at the Butterfly Ball <3
 She insisted on wearing this dress. There are butterflies on it. lol

Arielle graduated high school. I think Arielle's growth has surprised me the most this past year. She had a spectacular year. She's in China right now, serving at a summer camp for lower income children  and children with special needs in China. It's been a challenge for her to recognized that adulthood has arrived but I think she is warming up to the idea now that she can see the possibilities.

Great Photo with a few of her teachers!

Grandmom and Pop-pop

Our little girl
 She's been with us for over 5 years... There were times I didn't think we would make it to this place but here we are! Now on to the next level. I'm expecting God to continue to work in her life because I have seen so many miracles with these kids... answered prayers. God is working. Now we pray for employment and a functioning car. 

I'm reminded of a post I wrote over two years ago. MARCH LIONESS
God was at work then, and is still at work in her life now. 
There are times I feel so burdened but then I'm reminded how faithful HE has been.

And in other news...

Only a year ago, Evan was absolutely opposed to going to school. Problem was, he was opposed to doing any school. He became more and more difficult and fearful leaving the house. We prayed and prayed and God lead us to Ambassador Christian Academy. WHAT A BLESSING! They prayed for him and it shows. They were ready. And so was he when he walked through those doors in April. We started him in April to try and prepare him for the coming school year. 

What a great, God ordained idea! I still can't get over how he just jumped in and didn't look back. He was afraid of EVERYTHING, and now he is overcoming ALL these fears. I am so proud of this one. I know God is a miracle worker because I thought for sure he was headed down a long road of fear and anxiety. But GOD!
Evan with his teacher <3
Fifth Grade here he comes!!!

And Finally Asher... He started school in February. I cried when I sent him. We've been through so much together. He is so yielding and sweet and loving. An amazing spirit. What a blessing he is to my heart. He is never short on I love you Mom's or hugs and kisses. He is obedient and always ready to help. No matter what! But he struggles so hard with reading, and learning in general. He is dyslexic. And this does not just affect his reading, but math, organization, directionally, etc. He's always been a late bloomer, but I was finding that he felt more and more stupid as he tried to keep up with other kids his own age. There are memory lapses as well. He has stroke in his past, along with other severe sickle cell complications that have affected him. 

But he is an OVERCOMER. God has a plan for him. He told me once that he wants to tell children all over the world about Jesus... I believe he will!
After much much prayer we enrolled him in public school. And I continued to pray for a tutor that could teach him to read using the Orton-Gillingham method. A method proven to work for dyslexia! Unfortunitely, our district does not use this method yet. What a sad blow against hope here. BUT... 

God came through once again


He is going into 4th grade in September... and who is the 4th grade special ed teacher here at his new school??? Not only is she a believer in Jesus (another answered prayer!), she is also Orton-Gillingham certified! And now she is Asher's tutor. So Yes, he will be going into forth grade, and I could not be happier with this outcome. The plan is to continue to send him to this district at least 2 years-as long as Mrs T is his teacher. And I would LOVE for her to tutor him as long as he needs it and she is willing, 
she's hired! 

And I will end with photos of our little spontaneous trip to Williamsburg... God Bless.

Dinner Theater at Shields Tavern in Williamsburg

Dinner in the Basement

Disobedient Children

The little one too!

Ghost Walk... Boo!

Chesapeake Bay

From our tribe to yours...God Bless <3